A false feeling of self worth based on opinions of others.
In that case our personality is defined not by ourselves but by others.
When we are clearly aware of what constitutes us, it would hardly matter what others think of us.
Ego issues come when we are unable to adjust with changes made by others .
The picture suddenly sent through a gush of good vibration. Had it not been for the smile. It was there all the time but then she knew it was the moment. The same moment when the world suddenly seems to lose pace, everything around stops being in motion like someone pressed a pause button. It had happened before and it was happening then. She could so strongly feel it. That moment which seems to last forever until some external pokes you for your weird behaviour. She smiled as she knew instantly what was happening and clearing her throat and dissolving her smile she looked as firm as she could, yet feeling funny inside, cleared the air around her whilst the other person kept introspecting. This was it, if she had to stand in a palisade and had to tell the exact time and description of the event, she could. It’s a great feeling to feel the helpless fall she thought. Falling a prey was so easy for her. What she thought as a moment of joy was soon to become a sub drop of emotions.
Wondering whether she did a mistake by saying no to any contact for two days, she picked up her phone and dialled the same number thousands of miles away. To her dismay, no voice came from the other side and thoughts good and not so good started pouring in. She had fallen a prey to it again, she thought. A sad old feeling started sinking in. Was she there already? It had only been 21 days and a few more. Her belief in 21 days theory was coming true which said you only need 21 days to either form or break a habit. It did not make her too happy. She knew it was all said and done and expectation was just a part of this game. Her brain was resisting any more burden of responsibilities and her heart had started taking over. She was struggling hard to decide which one should reign. She had found a perfect picture which she knew somehow that she would never be able to own. This made her think and although it had been a short while, her decision was awaited. Brain or heart ?
It’s all in the moment.
We fall in love in a moment .
Come out of it in a moment.
What remains is the journey in between those two moments that makes up the rest of our lives.
The face u can’t resist looking at becomes the one you can’t look at .
Impulsiveness to repulsiveness in just a moment. From longing to meet to changing your path when you cross, the voice so melodious turning into croak, a smile to light up your world turning into an evil laugh that always belonged to darkness and death.
What gave pleasure becoming the only source of third degree, happiness to depression …all the evil skillful work of a moment. In and out in a moment. High and low in a moment.
So which moment to believe in?
Where does the truth lie in between these two? Are they both right or are they both wrong? Are they for real or just a fool’s paradise?
Oh this work of craft turning into witchcraft, tell me who you are?
Do I embrace you or let go of you?
Think maybe ..you may get your answer in a moment.
Sometimes you think this world is all about a Roland for an Oliver. You be good and they’ll be good, you be bad , they’ll be bad. Not really though. You be bad they’ll incontrovertibly be bad, you be good ; well, they’ll see whether to be good or not. Virtuousness is to a greater extent dependent on what we want from others rather than acting in accordance with what they have done to us. It’s arduous to predict the environment based on your own deeds exclusively. We are illusioned to think that all will remain good as we have stayed good and people to follow will follow us. We are, however, only responsibe for the immediate environment around us created by ourselves, not to look or predict any further, for what others do has no pertinence to your act nor does it gets influenced by what you do or have done. So be good if you want to but don’t expect your associates to do the same to their associates.
What trust is to a broken soul
Longs to love
Longs to believe
Broken and shattered
Never to love
Never to believe
You become possessed when the thought of leaving never crosses your mind. When everything seems to be intact for eternity. When attachment makes detachment lose its place and meaning. When the only option you want is the one you have. When you are busy being someone and forget yourself. You come to realize all this when you try to leave. When things start changing. When you try to detach.
When the only option you want is the one you don’t get. When you are back with yourself and feel you left a part of yours behind. When you see them leaving and you don’t know why it bothers you.
I was told to make up my mind
I did make up mind
Only I couldn’t do it well
After a journey covered with books
I couldn’t figure out where I would stand
Staying at a place for years
I couldn’t make up my mind for where I would be
Doing the same job for years
I couldn’t make up my mind what next
Chased by men for ages
I couldn’t make up my mind who it would be
Staying with my parents since birth
I couldn’t make my mind to replace them
Being myself since always
I couldn’t make my mind for who I would become
Yet I was told to make up my mind
For everything I not know